Black rubber/ White paint

Lost and found
soul compartment
Phillistines and lovers
others too
well ironed
sensible hair
Authoratarian
contrast to
mis-match
They will
call the van
for someone else
soon surely
Not me
Not today
and relief is clouded
by
dissapointment

of course

@

Scrunch the eyes
lips
nose
and chin
together
feel
the ridges
around
eye sockets
wonder
or
try to -
Where has it gone?
and
what was it?

just.. kicking sand
fooling
no
one
and
fooling
everyone
right here
in
here

Hungry

2011

Calm as
can be
it is..
and
I am

pissing

people

off

Implovi..z

It's an experiment
I was so angry
get out
Of
THE
WAY!!
stuffing my fucking
ears
How dare you!
Get out of The WAY..
polluted breath
hysterical
Jerkin knee
pointing the/a way
guzzle me
guzzle
This game is
not for me
light up
pass it this way
pass my way
vomit erectus
It's an experiment
I talk
to my cock
when it
doesn't
work
And she...
bathes with crystal
in a cold sea
and I
imagine
my painting
of it all.
It's an experiment
a gas
blast
Holy war in here..
Right this way
if you
please

5 hours later

I feel
soft sadness
think
of her
I hear
gentle
viola
think
of her
Crows in
damp air
caw
everything
wet
water down here
water up there
water down lower
I've been
thinking
about her
sitting
out here
in
cool air
sitting with time
touching
her skin
in my mind.

Some are caught in your throat

Given
the many
possibilities
shades
of grey
also rainbows
gel
dirt
and blood...
..The
many intricacies
of love of fear
of boredom of pain
of
starving soul fever
pay-by-the-hour mutilation
transparency
as so is as
invisible - yes
..
...Very
hard
-to see

Given
this
taken-those
and
even her
and the
velvet too

Given all that

Given

All

That

There should be
some profound statement
right
here _______

No Title

You have every right.

Rain

The rain is coming down steady.
My computer is set up outside
beneath a tin veranda.
Distant cars on the wet road
sound a little like a river.
I close my eyes.
Of course there's the drum
drum of raindrops.
I sit here and type
not much.
That's okay.
This weather makes my
mind quite still

I don't mind

It's time to transcend
the limits
of these restraints

It's time to tear
apart
the safety net
wrapped around
this
frightened
little
mind

It's time to carve
a notch
in the pillar
of those who made it

It's time to take me willingly
oh great spirits
as the scared are the brave
and the reckless
and the shameless
it's time to take me
willingly
into pictures unknown

I was born with this sense
but somehow
misplaced it
It's time to take me

As I'm coming home

Scenes

I've been..
laying here
remembering scenes
from
my adolescence

The night I
could have died
it was so
cold
-clear
winter sky
biting down hard

Stuck on
the beach
with only
a thin
blanket

terrified
sobbing
- almost
convulsing

Certain I wouldn't make it.

That's a scene

Walking

Sometimes I go for walks
and
sometimes
I take myself for a walk
float through the day
keeping my distance

No pain
no joy
just quiet

This too shall pass

Stuck in the wondering of what's next
lack of reason like crusts of mud
dried up on cogs
everything is the same
they lost my name at the register

I didn't get to see..